almost 6 years!

at last, i am a WIFE!!!

my feel now: of course la happy!!

even tho i still hv many outstanding problems, but i tolak2 tepi sumenya..sbb i nak feel happy sekejab bila dh jadi wife org ni. sad, saiko, unhappy, bored etc2 tu nanti2 la aku sambung feel ye. skrg aku nak feel sbgai seorg yg normal iaitu happy bila dah jadik isteri. kang kawen2 je dh sah jadi isteri org, aku trus x happy maka abnormal lah itu. org kampung boleh la mengspeku kan aku kawen paksa. dok gitu?

nak cite lg feel aku masa hari akad nikah aritu, aku rasa cam x worth it sgt. ye la aku sket punya lama couple ngn jamjul (almost 6 years oke) and during those years anything we want to do like kuar2 mlm ka, berdua2an ka, etc2 la sume dlm keadaan mcm x best la sbb TAK KAWEN LAGI. org pandang pon semacam jerk kan. then, anything yg jamjul nak lebih2 kan..(opss matilah pecah rahasia) mesti aku jwb LEPAS KAWEN LA OK. then on may 24th 2008 at 1045hours, i am officially annouced as WIFE to my jamjul. owh. by saying "Saya terimalah nikahnya dengan mas kahwin tersebut" by jamjul, i'm totally owned by him. dah ada cop atas dahi aku "fully-owned by jamjul". thehe.

u see, cket punya lama nak tunggu sah tu, tup2 x smpai 10mins evrythings changing!

dats why la smpai ke arini, kadang2 bila aku duk dua2 ngn jamjul aku jd terpikir, betul ke aku dh kawen ni?? the first things i asked my hubby to do after we annouced as husband-wife, "tlg cubit saya jap..i dont believe its real. we're the real husband-wife!"

gile kan. dah kawen cmni plk jadinya, belom kawen, terhegeh2 nak kawen. xsabor nak jadi bini pikul tanggungjawab.

oh, talking about tggungjawab, i still remember one of my cousin, my cousin-in-law actually who was attending my ijabQabul ceremony at masjid bisik to me a few minutes before i become puan...

"idup berumahtangga ni kena byk sabar. sabar byk2 dgn karenah suami. kalau xikut apa dia nak / dia suruh maka derhaka la kita. org derhaka neraka la tempatnya. until now, kak s** still dont really know how abg d** perangai, but Alhamdulillah until today i can handle him.."

she continues "sabar nih senang ckp, tp nak lakukan sgt susah".

dat time aku terdiam. aku cuba fahami betul2 apa dia smpaikan. yes, betul. kita mmg suka ckp "sabarlah.." tapi nak buat, masyaAllah mmg payah sgt.

kak s** continues lagi "walau mcmana syg nya awk kat husband awk, tapi letakkan hati awak pada NYA. iAllah evrythings will going ok".

aku terdiam lagi. i know my cousin tu bukan la sewarak @ sealim pmpuan2 yg pakai jubah-purdah itu, i know her from not-pakai-tudung-woman until now pakai-tudung-person even x la tutup likup sgt pon, tp dugaan yang dia terima dlm rmhtangga dia mmg hebat. next2 time la aku cerita psl dia kalao aku igt la. anyway, thanks kak s** for nasihating me.. iAllah i'll try my best for my hubby n family.

oke, let me story about me now. two days after my wedding ceremony, my hubby n i came back to shah alam for working. owh, very der gigih kan. 2hari kawen trus masuk keja katanya. 2hari masuk ofc, n tonite we'll going back to aloqStaq for my reception ceremony on May 31st. just now, i list down all the stuffs i want to bring back to my second-home ;), then i realize that there are many differents between go-back to my 1st home which is in jeteh n my 2nd home. let we see...

Things to Bring back to Alor Star:

1) 2 pairs of kurung

2) 1 pair of kebaya

3) pyjamas @ baju kelawar

4) 3 t-shirts

5) Seluar tidor

6) 2 jeans

7) Towel

8) Kain Batik

9) underwears.opss.

10) Few Tudung Bawal

11) etc etc...

pheww.. when i saw the list.. OMG. banyak nya aku nak bawak balik.. padahal aku duk sana around 2 @ 3 days jer. ini beg kotak purple aku tu pon x muat. ngan baju hubby lagik..aiyak.. oke now we see the list kalo aku nak balik jerteh..hehe..

1) underwear

2) 2 @ 3 t-shirts

3) 1 jean & 1 khakis

tu je..hahahah. now u see the different!!

kurung, kebaya, baju tidor, shorpants, towel, kain batik (urmm..actually i never used when i @ jerteh..x pandai pakai pon..opss), tudung bawal etc2 tu sume aku boleh amik yg subsidi kat rmh jerk.

tp ni dh balik rmh org lain, xleh la aku amik subsidi2 tu. mana ada depa bg subsidi kat aku cek oii.. uwaa. sedeh.